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Monday, April 6, 2009

A tale of a broken heart ~ Love letters, bears and other sentimental crap

A broken heart is like a shattered mirror; when u try to pick up the pieces you will get hurt. For almost 2 years of in denial and fake smiles, she has finally cracked. Deceiving oneself by her own self righteousness, she had the fear of getting hurt once more and to be seen feeble. The broken pieces were sweaped uner the carpet. Layers of masks, attempts to cover the truth of a thorn which cause pain and suffering between her breasts. she built up walls for her own protection as to which is doomed to failure.
Disposal of all unwanted memories of photos, love letters and other useless crap, secretly she has kept other sentimental possessions in a safe within her room, followed by her emotions in attempt to be locked away with it.
Should she be blamed for holding onto someone dear to her heart, in hope of his return? Him who without any warning ended the relationship and moved on instantly out of her life without leaving any reason. Left bewildered, she’d blamed herself for not pleasing him enough or perhaps exist as a living burden in his much eventful life.
Anger, betrayal, depression, confusion; resulting to low selfesteem and indentity crisis, it was all a calamity crushing her spirit and purpose to live. For almos 2 years now, she finally surrenders to the truth for her heart still beats for him. Gathering up courage, she faces the guy who left memories that had haunted her for too long. That night, he made a confession for the immaturity and that in fact she was a good girlfriend to him. He even made an apology which was more than she would have asked God for.
Finally set free, yet she still finds herself pondering over the sentimental memories and values of the past. The mezmerising swarovski crystal rose that was a gift of valentines day which was supposely representing his undying ’love’ for her . The exclusive gold heart necklace reminds her of the hope they previously held of their future together ~ holding hands at 80 years of age. The giantic bear was another expensive item purchaced for her, which is still within her possession to keep.
Thus far, confusion stuck and a question still remains.. Should she put the past behind her and finally move on?
Or is it worth pursuing a brand new start with him? Better yet, does he deserve another chance?
In conclusion, my opinion is this dude is nonetheless an ASS hoLe for leaving her to suffer in the dark..
..But I forgave him.

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