Jesslyn's World ~

Monday, April 13, 2009

A sOng 4 eAsteR
Everyone needs compassion; a love thats never failing.
Let mercy fall on me.
Everyone need forgiveness; A kindness of a saviour.
The hope of nations.

My saviour, he can move the mountains.
My God is is mighty to save, he is mighty to save.
Forever, the author of salvations.
He rose and conquered the grave, Jesus conquered the grave.

So take me as u find me; all my fears and failures.
fill my life again.
I give my life to follow; everything i believe in
now i surrender.

Shine your light and let the whole world see
we're singing for the glory of the risen king, jesus

the beauty exposed ;

One regular day at uni, Pearlyn and I were sitting at a computer bored and ..bLurr..
She showed me this wonderful invention of Blogging where journal of thought and all your life experiences are documented onto a site which is pretty much exposed to anyone on the planet Earth to read. Identity and personal privacy is all revealed, wide open and possibly at stake..?
Anywayss, few days down the track I look back on the site which my gOod frn helped put together. Realising the awesome background which I had chosen eagerly that day, was included with some sort of a corny statement along the sides... I hate it!

Sudden curiosity came over me, with a question
What is Beauty?

As you do,.one should google it or crack the wiki
Beauty is a characteristic of a person, place, object, or idea that provides a perceptual experience of pleasure, meaning, or satisfaction. Beauty is studied as part of aesthetics, sociology, social psychology, and culture. As a cultural creation, beauty has been extremely commercialized. An "ideal beauty" is an entity which is admired, or possesses features widely attributed to beauty in a particular culture.

It is often said that "beauty is in the eye of the beholder". A subject of beauty is anything that resonates with personal meaning..
Shakespeare expressed a similar sentiment in Love's Labours Lost, 1588:
Good Lord Boyet, my beauty, though but mean,Needs not the painted flourish of your praise:Beauty is bought by judgement of the eye,Not utter'd by base sale of chapmen's tongues
Benjamin Franklin, in Poor Richard's Almanack, 1741, wrote:
Beauty, like supreme dominionIs but supported by opinion
David Hume's Essays, Moral and Political, 1742, include:
"Beauty in things exists merely in the mind which contemplates them."

"Beaty is more than what meets the eye". Paying less attention to the cover and rather read its contents is something much more worth while as it may result to disappointment. BEauty is something not to be taken judgement upon in accordance by the outside appearance, but to be seen much deeper within someone's soul that is truely heart felt; And there will you discover something indeed much valuable.
Law and behold, this is the elixer of life. We all are on a journey, learning and experiencing things which shape and improves us. Developing the right state of mind, values and attitude produces everything you percieve to become beautiful.. and life is beautiful.

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Monday, April 6, 2009

A tale of a broken heart ~ Love letters, bears and other sentimental crap

A broken heart is like a shattered mirror; when u try to pick up the pieces you will get hurt. For almost 2 years of in denial and fake smiles, she has finally cracked. Deceiving oneself by her own self righteousness, she had the fear of getting hurt once more and to be seen feeble. The broken pieces were sweaped uner the carpet. Layers of masks, attempts to cover the truth of a thorn which cause pain and suffering between her breasts. she built up walls for her own protection as to which is doomed to failure.
Disposal of all unwanted memories of photos, love letters and other useless crap, secretly she has kept other sentimental possessions in a safe within her room, followed by her emotions in attempt to be locked away with it.
Should she be blamed for holding onto someone dear to her heart, in hope of his return? Him who without any warning ended the relationship and moved on instantly out of her life without leaving any reason. Left bewildered, she’d blamed herself for not pleasing him enough or perhaps exist as a living burden in his much eventful life.
Anger, betrayal, depression, confusion; resulting to low selfesteem and indentity crisis, it was all a calamity crushing her spirit and purpose to live. For almos 2 years now, she finally surrenders to the truth for her heart still beats for him. Gathering up courage, she faces the guy who left memories that had haunted her for too long. That night, he made a confession for the immaturity and that in fact she was a good girlfriend to him. He even made an apology which was more than she would have asked God for.
Finally set free, yet she still finds herself pondering over the sentimental memories and values of the past. The mezmerising swarovski crystal rose that was a gift of valentines day which was supposely representing his undying ’love’ for her . The exclusive gold heart necklace reminds her of the hope they previously held of their future together ~ holding hands at 80 years of age. The giantic bear was another expensive item purchaced for her, which is still within her possession to keep.
Thus far, confusion stuck and a question still remains.. Should she put the past behind her and finally move on?
Or is it worth pursuing a brand new start with him? Better yet, does he deserve another chance?
In conclusion, my opinion is this dude is nonetheless an ASS hoLe for leaving her to suffer in the dark..
..But I forgave him.

Labels: A tale of a broken heart ~ Love letters, bears and other sentimental crap

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Sunday, April 5, 2009

Salutations!

My sincere condolences dear reader, as you have been most unfortunate as to stumble upon my blog page. Who am I? Many have set out to prove their many theories as such but all have failed miserably, descending into madness or choosing to take their own lives rather than expose the horrifying truth to the world.
Ok.
I should cut the crap before I come off as a total moron. Teehee, I suppose I am friendly,..Perhapds tOO friendly to the point where it either scares the heck outa people, or is misunderstood which i still have yet to work on. In other words, it takes alot out of me to truely dislike someone. I can be sweet and loving, although at times I could be evil muahuahu.. I love people; When I win the lotto I would execute poverty and be the queen of the world!!. And now I shall leave you with these final 10 random facts about me:
1. I Hate watching sport but love to play
2. I grew up with male cousins, sO i Love playing vid games, getting dirty and wat not,
3. I get scared real easily ~ especially when Pearl hugs me from behind when studying in the lib
4. I like to think that im not ticklish, although I guess Im jumpy
5. I believe in Creative by design as oppose to evolution. Everything was made for a reason and purpose; and all came into existence to bring pleasure and glorifying him the creator of the universe.
6. I Adore kids. I had a hidden talent which was revealed in highschool in taking care of babies, changing nappies and etc etc etc..
7. Flowers makes me feel loved
8. I like hugs ~ it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside ^^ (Probably due to lack of or had a deprived childhood =S )
9. One day I will have a collection of swarovski crystals coz I absolutely love shiney things.
10. My dream cars are chevrolet camaro (BubleBee!!) & porche carrera GT

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